B-o-r-e-d ! Have been skipping lessons this few days. I think i`ll be dead when school reopens :D Arghs, so tired of my life now.

Was at home rotting my ass away the whole day. Ben came over to my place to accompany me for awhile because i was alone at home and afraid. :D Hahs. Waited for sandra to come home before he left my place. Went to bathe, dolled up and headed out to suntec with sandra to meet mommy and the rest. Ate at 'Kushin-bo'. The food there aint really very good, aint worth the money luhh ! There was this fat ass sitting beside our table, kept whispering to his friends about me & my sisters. Gosh, pls take a look at yourself, one chair doesnt seem enough to fit your fat ass ! Argh..

Went to 'Mango' after eating. Sisters all bought new clothes except for me because none caught my eye. Wanted to buy my white dress but i couldnt find it. Lols. So sadddd can? =( Headed home after that. Felt damn sick on the cab, eyes kept tearing, was feeling damn weak luhh. Upon reaching home, i removed my make up, and fell asleep all the way till now. Siann... No programmes tonight. Arghh. boring holidays. :(

Sighh. I really regretted calling him that night. If not, things wouldnt turn out the way it is now. 'Give up give up' is what i keep telling myself to do but i just cant. Why must the last time when we bid each other goodbye, i had to see him cry? Everytime i pick up my phone and dial his number, i get afraid that he would not want to answer my call. I can put down my pride for him, but i cannot take the pain if he doesnt answer my call. After all the mean things i`ve said, would he still wanna answer my call? I dont think so. Sighh... Boy, if you see this, im really very sorry for everything i`ve said and done. You said you didnt deserve me, but i guess im the one who really doesnt deserve you. If given a chance, i wont ask for more, but just for us to remain as friends. Too late now aint it ? I really wanted so much to hug you that night and cry my heart out when i saw you tearing, but i couldnt because my sisters were there and they told me not to cry infront of you. Sighh. I really miss you so fucking much that its beginning to hurt me all over again.